A step towards some change

I am a very simple egyptian girl, who is not satisfied somehow with her society and feels like this specific society deserves more than it gets, and can be the best with little more effort and much more frankness and persistance. "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude. Don't complain."(Maya Angelou)

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Location: Cairo, Egypt

Sunday, January 13, 2008

EXTREME DISAPPOINTMENT

I FEEL SO DISAPPOINTED WHEN I REALIZE THAT ALL OUR YOUTH ARE AUTOMATICALLY PROGRAMMED ON TRAVELING ABROAD JUST TO GET AWAY FROM THIS COUNTRY. ONE WAY OR ANOTHER U CAN'T GET RID OF UR NATIONALITY U WILL ALWAYS BE THE FOREIGNER IN THAT OTHER COUNTRY. U WILL NOT HAVE THE SAME RIGHTS THE LOCAL CIVILIANS HAVE. BUT THIS IS NOT THE PROBLEM, THE BIGGER PROBLEM IS THAT WE ARE RUNNING FROM OUR RESPONSIBILITIES OUR RESPONSIBILITIES TOWARDS OUR COUNTRY. AND IF SOMEONE SAYS THIS COUNTRY DIDN'T GIVE ME ANYTHING THEY ARE LIARS BECAUSE IT'S ENOUGH IT HAS GIVEN U A PLACE TO LIVE IN AND ANOTHER PLACE TO BE EDUCATED IN. THIS COUNTRY IS DETERIORATING I'M NOT DENYING THIS BUT ARE WE JUST GOING TO WATCH IT FALL DOWN WATCH ALL OUR ANCESTORS HARD WORK JUST "GONE WITH THE WIND" IF WE ARE NOT ABLE TO DO LIKE THEM THEN AT LEAST TRY TO KEEP IT SAFE. OUR RESPONSIBILITY TOWARDS THAT DETERIORATING COUNTRY IS TRY TO CHANGE AND PROTECT IT FROM DEATH. BECAUSE IF EVERYONE JUST LEAVE THE COUNTRY WHAT WOULD BE LEFT IN HERE !!!!!!!! JUST WEAK, OLD , KIDS, POOR OR EXTREMELY RICH PEOPLE DO U THINK THIS IS GOING ANYWHERE OTHERWISE THAN "DOWN"
WE ARE THE ONE WHO are ABLE TO KEEP THE MIDDLE CLASS WE ARE THE FUTURE. I AM SORRY IF ANY BODY'S MOTHER WAS UNABLE TO RAISE THEM TO BE GREAT IN THEIR OWN COUNTRY TO BE LEADERS AND REFORMERS OF THEIR GENERATION. ITS NOT THEIR FAULT HOW THEY WERE RAISED BUT ITS THEIR FAULT THAT THEY ACCEPTED HOW THEY TURNED TO BE SO PASSIVE AND CHICKENS. JUST RUNNING AWAY FROM UR DESTINIES TO PAY BACK TO UR COUNTRY.
I GUESS IF SOMEONE THINKS ABOUT THEIR COUNTRIES AS A MOTHER OR A SISTER THEY WOULDN'T EVER TRY TO ABANDON IT. IF UR MOTHER WAS REALLY ILL WOULD U JUST LEAVE HER AND RUN AWAY, LEAVE HER TO DIE!! IF UR SISTER TURNED OUT TO BE BAD GIRL WOULD U LEAVE HER AND SURRENDER OR WOULD U TRY TO HELP HER AND REFORM HER TO BE BETTER PERSON. COME ON ITS THE SAME WITH UR COUNTRY GUYS. I KNOW HOW HARD IT IS ON A GUY TO FIND A GOOD JOB AND SETTLE AND START A FAMILY, HOWEVER ITS NOT IMPOSSIBLE. ALL GUYS JUST ARE LOOKING FOR THE EASY OPPORTUNITY, THE QUICK DOLLAR. THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO MOVE FORWARD ITS JUST A WAY TO "LIVE".
IF U REALLY WANT TO KNOW HOW BITTER IT IS TO GIVE AWAY UR LIFE HARD WORK JUST SO EASILY, TRY TO WORK SO HARD ON SOMETHING FOR SO LONG WOULD IT BE EASY FOR U TO SIMPLY THROW IT IN THE GARBAGE OR EVEN GIVE IT TO SOMEONE ELSE. THIS IS WAT WE'RE DOING TO OUR YOUTH, EVERY MOTHER IS GIVING AWAY HER SONS TO TRAVEL AND WITH THEM ALL HER SACRIFICES, DAYS OF PAIN AND AGONY AND STAYING LATE AT NIGHT TO WATCH OUT HER KIDS WHEN THEY ARE SICK, SO SIMPLY AND EASILY IN A MOMENT IMAGINING THAT THIS IS BETTER FOR HIM AND HIS FUTURE , I'M SORRY BUT SHE IS JUST A LOSER TO DO SO BECAUSE SHE SPENT ALL THOSE YEARS FOR HER KIDS SO ONE DAY THEY WOULD LOOK AFTER HER NOT ABANDON HER LEAVING HER WITH A FANTASY TO SEE THEM ONCE A YEAR. TRY TO ASK AN OLD FATHER WHO IS SO PROUD TO ASK HIS SON NOT TO TRAVEL AND STAY BY HIS SIDE FOR HIS LEFT DAYS ALIVE. TRY TO IMAGINE HOW MUCH THEY ARE SUFFERING GIVING UP ALL THEIR LIVES AWAY TO FOREIGN COUNTRIES, HOW ABOUT UR OWN COUNTRY.
THE REALLY IRONIC ABOUT THAT IS A SINGLE COMMENT I HEARD FORM ONE GUY WAS THAT "
HE CAN'T WALK DOWN THE STREET HOLDING HANDS WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND WITHOUT HEARING COMMENTS THAT PROVOKES HIM..!!" OR THAT HE WENT TO AN ARABIC GULF COUNTRY AND SAW "A GUY KISSING A GIRL IN THE STREET AND NOBODY COMMENTED ALL PEOPLE WERE PASSING BY WITHOUT ANY ACTION..!!!" AND THESE TWO EXAMPLES WERE ACTUALLY TO CLARIFY "HIS POINT OF VIEW". WAT DO U THINK WE ARE SO "SATURATED" WITH FOREIGN CULTURE, HOWEVER THE BAD STINKY HABITS WHICH JUST SHOWS HOW SILLY WE ARE TURNING TO BE!!
ANOTHER ANGLE WHICH NOBODY THOUGHT ABOUT IS THAT HOW MUCH TRAVELING WOULD CHANGE PERSONALITY AND APART FAMILIES AWAY AND FRIENDS AND BRING OUT EMOTIONALLY DISTURBED KIDS FOR MISSING THEIR FATHERS/MOTHERS OR EVEN BOTH.
EVEN PROPHET MOHAMED (PBUH) LOVE MEKKA SO MUCH THAT WHEN HE WAS ORDERED TO TRAVEL TO MEDINA HE KEPT HIS HEART LOOKING TO GO BACK TO MEKKA AND HOW HAPPY HE WAS WHEN GOD ORDERED HIM TO GO TO MEKKA AND HOW HIS LOVE TO THE PLACE MADE HIS SO MERCIFUL TO ITS PEOPLE. OUR YOUTH UNFORTUNATELY WERE NOT RAISED TO LOVE THIS COUNTRY ... SO PITIFUL ...

Saturday, January 05, 2008

some change "لا ادري"

now guys i'd gladely present to u a new young and enthusiastic talent and i'm so proud that his first broad publish is through my poor blog so for all of u who appreciate the word and the word for itself plz tell me and him ur truthful opinion about his first published work "لا ادري" . Now ladies and gentlemen elbashmohandes Ahmed Ramadan
الى متي سيطول بي الزمان من دونها..................؟

لا ادري !!!

الى اين ستاخذني الليالي بعد رحيلها ...................؟

لا ادري!!!!!!

الى متى ستظل عيني تقطر دما على فراقها............؟

لا ادري!!!!!!!

الى متى سيظل قلبي يتمزق اشلائا من فقدانها..........؟

لا ادري!!!!!!!!!!

الى متى سيظل عقلي مذهولا لا يؤمن بقدرها.............؟


لا ادري!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

الى متى ستظل روحي تذبل و تذبل حزنا بعد ان صارت وحدها..............؟

لا ادري!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

الى متى سيظل جسدي يشكو و يئن يعد ان رحلت لمصيرها..............؟

لا ادري!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ولا ادري اذا كنت ساتحمل كل هذا العذاب من بعدها .........

كل ما ادري انها رحلت و تركتني وحيدا ............

ولا الومها............

فرحيلها لم يكن باختيارها ....

فقد كانت هي الحياة لي و لقد كنت انا السعادة و الامان لها ..............

و الان رحلت سعادتي و اماني ............

و رحلت هي اخذة روحي و حياتي لها........

و بقيت انا.........

حزينا ....

وحيدا........

اتذكر حبي لها ..............

يتقاتل عقلى مع اسئلته و حيرته .................

و انا اقف مكتوف الايدي ..................لا ادري
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حاجة وسخة الجزء التالت

لما يبقى كل اللي عايشين عليه مجرد شعارات فارغة هنكون بنضحك على نفسنا وللا على الاجيال اللي جاية وللا الحكومه هي اللي بتضحك علينا مهو ربنا عرفوه بالعقل يعني لما زمااااااااااااااااااان يقولوا الشرطة في خدمة الشعب و بعدين فجأة تكتشف ان الشرطة والشعب في خدمة الوطن طب لما انا والشرطة نخدم الوطن ويجي الوطن يخزوءنا ناخد حقنا منيين "نروح اسرائيل"طب ولاما يكون الوطن مخزوءنا واحنا ساكتين و صابريين بس تيجي كمان الشرطة تخزوءنا زيادة لأ بقي ده يبقى كتييييربصراحة انا موش ضد البلد انا فعلا بحب مصر فوق الوصف ونفسي نكون احسن بلد في العالم موش عشان هي بلدي بس عشان احنا فعلاً عندنا المقومات الكتيرة لبلد عريق والعقليات الجبارة اللي بس محتاجة اللي يقدر يوجهها قبل ما تفقد الامل وتبيع القضية انا بس ضد السلطة المطلقة اللي بيتمتع بيها اي حد في منصب كبير بحس انها حتى لو الانسان ده مثالي هتكون هي مصدر ضعفه و هتحوله لانسان جشع اناني مغرور لان هي دي الطبيعة البشرية و هو ده حال الشرطة للاسف في وطني العزيز.
كلمة اخيرة ملهاش اي علاقة بالموضوع اللي فات لما تصحى من النوم تلاقي تليفون البيت موش شغال ده شيء عادي بيحصل بتبلغ وتتصل وتنتظر اننهم يصلحوه و المفروض مياخدش وقت لانهم لسة مصلحين الكبلات اللي اتسرقت من فترة قريبه ما علينا تفوت ايام واسابيع ومفيش تغيير قول شهر وكسور و تفاجاء بيهم بيتصللوا بيك يقولولك هي نمرتك كام عشان نوصل الخط!!!!! و تكتشف بمحض الصدفة الغريبة ان اصلاً تليفونك نمرته اتغيرت!! والمفروض انك تروح السنترال تعرف النمرة الجديدة عشان سعادة الموظف لما يكلمك تقولوا النمرة الجديدة يقوم موصلك الخط ولو كل ده حصل بعد كام يوم-متخافش الخط لسه موجود- تلاقي حد بيتصل بيك يقولك على فكرة "لأ موش الكاميرا الخفية" النمرة دي بتاعتي انا و هما ركبوا الخط غلط!!!!!
تفتكروا و ده بيحصل في بلدنا المحروسة الخالية من الفقر واللي اهلها عايشين في "رفاهية" ممكن في يوم نتقدم خطوة حقيقية لقدام و فكر الموظف المصري بالتفكير الرجعي ده؟؟!!